With This Ring...

I remember the moment that Jon proposed. I was so overwhelmed with emotion as he put that ring on my finger. The most beautiful ring I had ever seen. I was never going to take it off. It was perfect to me.

Then there was the process of finding the perfect wedding band to go with it. I thought about it a lot...until one day I was going through my jewelry and I realized I already had the perfect wedding band. My mom had given me the wedding band she wore when she was married to my dad many years ago shortly after he had passed away. It was two tone and miraculously matched my engagement ring perfectly. So, I told Jon and he loved the idea and I set off to get it sized. Wedding band=check!!

I remember taking the wedding band out on numerous occasions during our engagement and being so excited about Jon putting it on my hand on our wedding day. It would be the symbol of our love, a circle that never ends, etc.

On our wedding day I remember us looking at each other and exchanging vows and putting the rings on each other. During our honeymoon I know I probably looked at my hand and Jon's a million times with rings on our hands. It was so exciting, exhilarating. We would both get these big cheesy grins...we really did it...we are married!!

For several weeks afterward I didn't want to ever take the rings off. I would even avoid doing things like the dishes because I didn't want to have to take my rings off. (or maybe I was just subconsciously avoiding the dishes...lol) Looking back I laugh at myself for being so weird about it. Jon takes his off all the time, especially when he is in the shower, and I will find it later because he has NEVER worn a ring and still isn't 100% used to it.

I have relaxed some about it. I realized yesterday as I took them off to do some dishes. I thought, they are just rings and whether Jon and I have rings or not our love for each other is still there. How silly to put so much pressure on two little rings. They are not what holds our love, it is our hearts. We don't show our love through those rings, but through our actions to each other.

But, I am a girl and I will continue to wear my bling proudly!! And I will love Jon and Jon will love me, rings or no rings.

6 Months...

Wow! Jon and I have survived our first 6 months of marriage! It has certainly been a wild ride, much like our 5 year relationship before marriage and at the same time totally different.

It's funny because right after the wedding people would ask us if it felt different. At the time it really didn't. We got home from the honeymoon and returned to our normal day to day routine. But, as time passed I really did start to realize a total transformation in our relationship. The way I think about stuff, the way I go about planning things, etc. It certainly has taken some getting used to, but we are both working on it daily and loving it.

Happy Father's Day

First I would like to say Happy Father's Day to all the wonderful dads out there.

Father's day for me is difficult. My dad died when I was younger and I miss him terribly. I was such a daddy's girl and I loved being with him. This year has been especially difficult. At my wedding in January...he wasn't there. He didn't get to walk me down the aisle and give me away. He didn't get to have a special dance with me. He didn't get to make a toast to my new husband and I. I know he was there in spirit without a doubt, but it's still not the same. It was hard when I went to all my friends' weddings and I watched them get walked down the aisle and dance with their fathers. I longed to have that myself and hoped they each cherished those moments.

It was hard the year I graduated and he wasn't there to tell me how proud of me he was (I still know he was proud). It will be hard when we start having babies and Grandpa isn't there.

However, I have been blessed (or cursed at times) with a stepdad who has loved and supported me for much of my life. Life with Mike was at times very difficult when I was growing up and some of you may know that the last 2 years were extremely difficult and hard. He is now, however a very different man and that is good. He is trying everyday to be a better man.

Despite the bad through the years I never needed anything that he didn't provide (financially). I know he always loved me and Dennis as if we were his own. And he was there to walk me down the aisle (along with Dennis) and Mike and I did a dance. Mike was there when I graduated and told me how proud of me he was. Mike will be an amazing Grandpa and he is actually worse than my mom about asking when he will get grandchildren! LOL. I love Mike and I know he loves me.

I still miss my Daddy. I wish he was here, but I know he is listening somewhere. So, ((Big HUG)) I Love you Daddy! Happy Father's Day!

Tell your dad you love him and cherish every minute you have with him.

Miss (not) Independant

So, I have emarked on a new adventure in my life. As of last Friday the 12th I no longer have a car. Since I was able to drive I have had a car. So, this is just strange.

I have become a victim of this terrible economy like so many others and just could not afford the payments on my car so we made the decision to do a voluntary repo. Although there was a moment when I felt like a failure for not being able to pay, that is not the worst part. I hate the feeling of not being able to be independant. Now, anytime I need or want to go somewhere I have to depend on others (my mom and husband). They have been great about it and I am sooo lucky to have them to depend on. It's just ackward when I think "oh on Wednesday I can go here....no wait, can I get a ride there?"

Thankful

So, today I was driving down the road and thinking about all the stuff and events I have coming up in the next few weeks. WOW do I have a lot of stuff going on and I'm thinking "how in the world am I going to fit this all in? If I go do this I just have to leave by this time to make it to this..." Then I realize how completely blessed I am to have so many wonderful friends and family in my life. I am sooo thankful for these awesome people and that just makes my life so fulfilling!! :)

Run to you...

I run my life
or is it running me
I run to fast
or too slow it seems
When lies become the truth
that's when I run to you

This world keeps spinning faster
into a new disaster so I run to you
I run to you baby
and when it all starts coming undone
baby you're the only one I run to
I run to you

I love this new song by Lady Antebellum. It is kinda like my new anthem lately. Somedays I really don't know if I'm running my life or if its running me. Things just get crazy sometimes, but I love my life and I love that I have Jon to run to. He really is such an amazing husband. Although we had been together for over 5 years by the time we got married there is sooo much that changes after you are actually married. So many good changes. He really is my rock and the one I run to when it really does start coming undone. I just love being married and really being a solid team with him.

Okay, enough sappy stuff...LOL!

I know it has been a while since my last entry. So here is the rundown:
-cousin graduated and turned 18 (WTH...I changed her diapers) I am so proud of her!
-Had a great Memorial Day weekend until...
-got sick on Memorial Day...missed work all week, was miserable
-Went to Janine's AWESOME 80's hair metal wedding
-had Swanson family get together at the pool to hang out with Doug and Melissa before they moved back to San Diego.
-Back to work-cleaned up mess left for me from being absent the previous week
-got hired to plan a party on New Year's Eve
-learned of another new potential client for DOC services
-quit CVS!!!!!!!!
-best friend got married (at the courthouse)

So, life has been hectic, but I like it that way! I would get bored if my plate wasn't full.

Family Week

Wow what a busy week we had last week! It all started last weekend when some of Jon's family came into town from CA for his cousin's graduation from Rollins! Congrats Melissa!! Well, my parents hosted a fish fry for all on Monday night. Then Jon's mom stayed with us Tuesday and Wednesday night before heading home on Thursday. I am such a lucky daughter-in-law...I absolutely adore my mother-in-law!!! She is so awesome. Jon and I actually had the pleasure of living with her for the two years we lived in San Diego and her and I get along great. Anyway, she helped us out soo much! She took me grocery shopping and filled up our kitchen cabinets and fridge! Such a huge relief.

Jon also started a new job, FINALLY!!! He is now working for my brother at Air America and so far it is going good. They were working on the Plaza Cinema in downtown Orlando hanging the big sign over the entrance. Unfortunately he had to work long hours and didn't get a lot of time with his mom, but we are planning on visiting her in CA in a few months.

Then on Friday we both took off work to go with my mom, stepdad, and Dennis down to Winter Haven. My great Uncle Willard was diagnosed with Liver Cancer and is not expected to live much longer. So, we went for what will probably be the last visit, but also the only time Jon would get to meet him. Well, the two of them hit it off right away and Uncle Willard gave Jon two pairs of his cowboy boots. Jon and I were both really honored. Willard just loved my cowboy husband. It was really nice to see him too. I think the last time I saw him I was probably 10 or 11. He is such a great man and he will be missed.

new blogger...

Well, I have decided to take the plunge into the blogging world!! So, here we go...

My husband, Jon, and I got married in January and we are living the newlywed life. Really, not a lot has changed due to the fact that we have been together for five years and lived together for probably about 3 of those 5 years. I think the biggest change for us is financially. Learning to work together as a team financially has been a new experience for us, but we are both learning and working on it daily! Of course I don't think it helps that like many newlyweds, we are freakin dirt poor!! UGH! But we have each other and our dogs and we are happy!!

I have also decided to throw myself into the entrepeneur world and start my own wedding planning business, Simply Splendid Celebrations (386-383-4845)...that is so exciting! At the moment I have a few events lined up that I am doing for friends and family and looking forward to them and being able to use them to start building a portfolio. So, if you know anyone that needs day of coordination, or full on planning for any event please make sure to tell them about me!

Well, I guess I will wrap up my first entry for now. Thanks for checking my blog out and I look forward to writing more. :)